I don’t live a “charmed life”. Okay by some world standards it is very charmed. I’m not completely amiss to the rest of the world. However, by Americans standards, I’m actually quite average in how we live. As a person, I’ll admit over the years I’m realizing I’m not actually average. I work hard never worried about if it is actually what I “want to do”, but can I do it. I never see anything as a failure. Even the most face flop disastrous undertaking is not a failure, but merely a lesson learned. I never have a problem going first and making a fool out of myself until I figure things out. Sometimes this means someone comes behind me & seems to do it better- because I’ve already worked out the kinks. 🤔 but I’m okay with that too. I don’t buy into the never say quit or die. Heck no! Sometimes you need to walk away! Usually it’s sooner then later. Most people hold on to ideas and other people way past an expiration date. Change has never scared me. I thrive on new experience so change is a welcome event. It keeps me from getting board. I’m authentic as I can possibly be. Sometimes this means being a bit socially awkward or others being a little uncomfortable. I’m okay if you’re uncomfortable. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I’m not going to change who I am so others feel more at ease. Usually if someone’s feeling uneasy it’s because I’m talking about or doing something they have issue with. Thats what your spiritual leaders, school counselors, and psychologists are for. It’s not my job to figure out your neuroses. Love you but there’s not enough time in the day!
So Yha, that’s right I’m just me doing the things I love to do. Living life actually better now then when I worried about the appearance of living life. I’m not sure I have it all figured out and I don’t want to yet. Perhaps when I’m in my late 90s I’ll declare that I have learned all I need to learn. Until that time comes I’m going to keep seeking new experiences and carving out new paths for myself.